Oh effff - Part Two

There's a lot to figure out now. I need to evaluate the relationships in my life and determine if they have value in my life, and balance that with what value am I bringing to other's lives? I'm a classic over-extender, I will do more than I am able to help someone or just even make them feel good - and do nothing to allow myself feel better. RSD is a good example of it. I justify it though - if a friend needs help and I have the money - isn't that more important than a handful of records to add to my already inflated collection? I don't know. I do however know when the card is flipped and I find myself in need, there's no one to turn to. Hell, I can't even pick up the phone and call one of the few people I trust, because for all intents and purposes, I cannot exist at certain times. It's really complex, when all I want is simple - but simple will never be a word that appears in that epitaph, and I'm quite confident that is the direction it's going.

I have purchased quite a bot of art this year. Bethy Williams, Johanna Ost, Tonya Dickie, Dennis Hansbury, Johanna O'Donnell and photography from Kim Marshall. I was also gifted art from Ralph Verano, Anne Schummer and Joe Quillsong. I don't feel so naked art-wise anymore. Still some room for a Cake, a Steve Parker, and others. There's so many great local artists touching upon so many different talents and styles. Makes me wonder if you would find this in any large city? I'm convinced you would, which just blows my mind... there must be so much amazing art out there I've never seen... makes me want to get in the car and go drive to the next big city and hit the local art venues. Money would help!

Some of my new musical discoveries have been a movement dubbed witchcore or hex house. It's goth, indie, hip hop, occult, and sometimes satanic. Quite interesting. Heroin And The Vein is a Lynch-esque soundscape moreso than Dirty Beaches. It's been in my rotation heavily. I also stumbled upon Under Byen, Gotye, EMA, Sleep Party People, Kindest Lines, and Two Step Horror (good luck finding anything from them). A lot of this will be making it's way in a package to Maisy. Going to Dead Can Dance in September. To be perfectly honest, for as excited I am about this show, I am equally apprehensive. And it has nothing to do with the band. There's a whole Pandora's Box traveling to this show, and I worry like hell about that lid coming off. I can almost guarantee with the track record of the 4 previous Fridays... I've not the skills to prevent that lid from coming off. Have to close again... more later.